Hi there.

Ok, the title is basically how I feel right now. Since yesterday actually. 

I’m actually trying to calm myself down by telling myself, no, its not your fault. But let’s face it bro, the guilt is killing me deep inside. No matter how hard I try, it’ll get to me. I really don’t know what to do. Reading your posts make me feel like an evil, mean bitch. Am I even supposed to feel this way? People are telling me that I’m not at fault. But again, the guilt is killing me. 

You trusted me. Yes, I didn’t promise you or like swear or take a freaking oath or something. But does it take all that to assure you that you can trust me? No. Hais, you trusted me. :/ I failed at being a good friend. :( 

That’s the guilt part. Here comes the other part. ;) 

Being a middle man sucks. I feel like she has the right to know. This isn’t a matter that should be kept, is shouldn’t. The other thing is, you knew what you had to do. Or maybe what you should/could have done the prevent her from being hurt. Yet, you still entertained him. I really didn’t wanna get involved but everything just got haywire. Fucked up, in other words. 

I really don’t know what to do, whether to just shut up or like apologise or just stuff myself with hashbrown. I’ll go with the third choice honestly. 

My problem is just that I feel guilty. Period.